Thursday, November 10, 2005
im bloggin now because i can no longer stand this..
you all really were part of my life. but as i've said, i'm wat i am because you all made me what i am today. i'm doing this today is because i cannot take it anymore. if i ever turn myself away from you, you know it. you chose it. i am not you dog. whenever you like, you treat me like a princess. but at other times, you spit at me as if u never knew me. put it simply, you treated me as though i was a pile of shit. yes. PLEASE. stop it. and i mean it. stop pretending. i beg you. if you're gonna just stay like that, i rather you tell it straight into my face. lets not walk in circles. its gettin worse and worse by the day. up till the point that i dun even wan to speak to you. speaking to you will make myself mad. why should i torture myself.. go ahead and continue with your lies. I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE. everyone has limits. and you met mine. HOW I WISH THAT YOU CAN KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE. to be in a diff class, having diff activities everyday. i really WISH you WILL UNDERSTAND how it feels. really. i made an effort and you just wiped it off your face. can you at least try? try to make an effort to improve our relationship? no. you did not. will you ever do it? writing this, i feel so desperate. and i think, i should just stop it. THANK YOU for making me what i am today.
